After Nana passed away and the family was around a lot I had fallen into eating snack stuff. It's kind of habit because when things happen in my family the one thing that we are all very good at is eating. The issue is that we don't eat meals - we have plates of stuff like cheese or meats or crackers and that's what we eat. So while I felt like I wasn't eating in that first week, I was actually eating all the time. The difference was that I wasn't eating actual meals so I didn't feel like I was eating at all.
Over the last couple of weeks I've been working to get myself back on track, which is necessary. I want to feel healthy, and before Nana passed away (when I had started eating fresh fruits and veggies all the time) I was feeling healthy and had taken some weight off. I put about 5 of those 8 pounds back on, but they've been slowly disappearing again. I started trying to eat a bowl of cereal in the morning and have something light for lunch and then a small (but healthy) dinner - usually salad with some form of white meat product on the side and some veggies to dip.
I know being a perpetual meal skipper is never a good thing, but with my coffee habit there are some mornings when I wake up and just don't want to eat. So instead I'll have my usual three or four cups of coffee, which brings me to close to 11 a.m., then I've been having a container of yogurt for lunch and that's about it until 7 o'clock or so in the evening when I have a small dinner. I like that. I don't feel full after I eat, but I don't feel hungry because my body is getting the nutrition it needs. The only problem I'm going to have is around the pool this summer... we always have snacks around the pool for the kids. However, and I'm really proud of myself for this, the last few days I've resisted the urge to snack. The kids had potato chips with them at the pool on Friday and I didn't eat a single chip. And then we went in the house and I had a nice tall glass of water.
I don't know, I feel better and apparently I'm looking better. I'm not being egotistocal, but I've gotten compliments from Grandpa's girlfriend, Bethany, Mom(!), and last night Sean, Pat, and I were talking about diets and dieting because Pat has put Sean on a diet (which is a good thing in my opinion because if Sean doesn't lose about 150 pounds he's bound for a heart attack before he's 35)... but even Sean was like "Yeah I thought you had lost a little weight. You look smaller." which for Sean is a really good compliment. And I don't know if Ron really noticed, but he could hardly ake his hands off me when we were alone - so I'll take that as a yes he likes what I'm doing. ;)
Anyway, I need to go get a cup of coffee and a shower. Dress shopping with Ron's little sister today for her wedding... then when I get back I might force boy to go grocery shopping with me because I need some fresh vegetables in this place or else I'm going to end up making pasta for dinner and that will just blow how good I've been doing. bah to that.